Not Dead!

An inactive blog doesn't mean that the blogger is dead! Wth! It could be of hundred of reasons but mine.....LAZY + BUSY + NO MONEY and NOTHING OUT OF THE ORDINARY.

To put it simple, since I moved back to Kampar it takes time to adapt into a new class which already have their own groups. Kinda similar like the previous time when I was in Diploma but in the end I managed to fit in just nice. Just like every other boring place you can think off, nothing special happened in Kampar except for some bad news which was about the death of students from UTAR and KTAR.

Here I am, at home again surfing the net with a lousy line...Should have just 'POTONG' but then it would be a fuss to apply again. Planning to upgrade my cpu with the extra PTPTN money. Friends from KL are coming this Saturday to visit ipoh, not me, (ARSE-Holes). ANYWAYS this is only to show that Im still doing OK and I would like to start blogging back when I have the decent connection and time to start with. Please do no forget about poor old me~

Feeling Alive Again....

Today before the last class, a group of us hotel students went out to melati to get some theme party gifts. Im juz tagging along to see wht I can help them wif, because they helped us a lot in our team party. I guess i have to include their names here who are Kai weng (Buddy), Alyssa (siu la ba), carmen (dai la ba), Li wen and shin.


Since im gonna lend a hand, they decided to take my car instead cuz my car parked at the nearest to the college. Went to a supplier shops of candies, chocolates, sweet stuffs u name it. Saw a lots of old sweets that we used to like during our childhood period. Reminiscing about our past in the store wif loud voices of laughter and screaming. Kai weng apparently is close to the store keeper so we can almost act like we are at home. And then happens a childish act....I was walking to the back telling carmen we had to go cuz class starts at 5.00pm and its already 4.36pm. Here how it goes:

Me: Do you want to buy those snacks?
Car: Yea
Me: Do you have money?

Then she starts looking at me with those cute expression

Car: Yaloh, please buy for me please!!

Then she started pulling my hand

Me: I dun have enuf money to buy the things I wan and ur asking me to buy for you? chisin!

Next I tried to walk out quickly she starts grabbing my hand saying ' I want ar, I want ar' like a little kid who wants tit bits.
Luckily the floor is slippery therefore its easy to walk out wif her still dragging my arm.
Chisin loh, but in the end Kai weng bought it to her as her birthday present....then the whole group starts bad-mouthing me in a joking way. Out of choices, then belanja her at kopitiam loh.
We were chatting , laughing and screaming like today was our last day. People around us start starring but we dont giv a shit and continue do wht we do. And finally we went to class at 5.30pm. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Its like getting back what I have lost in the previous years, it makes me feel so alive being able to do what I wan without anyone's consent and Juz be myself although its onli in a short time period. Thanks guys for making this trip to study at KL being a bit more worth it.

Li wen has some of our crazy conversation at kopitiam recorded. I wonder when will she post it. XD

Having a Dilemma (Advice Needed)

I have been given a choice to stay at KL campus or transfer back to KAMPAR campus. Each have their pro's and cons. Im gonna list it down here.....Im really desperate to have a mindset of decision and Im confused wif it.

KL CAMPUS===> New environment but hazardous air to breath with
Complicated people's but most of them arent
Expenses are high
Unfamiliar wif the location
Need to do a lot of networking and road remmembering
Almost doing everything alone.....it gets lonely sometimes

KAMPAR CAMPUS===> Familiar environment wif fresh air but its too comfortable it makes
people lazy.
Most of the people were easy going people in other words, friendlier
Expenses are half of KL's
Easy to get home or convinient
Existing friends can help or accompany


The main reason I consider to move back KAMPAR is that my dad is not working so our family income is limited plus my lazy sister is being supported by my mom so i try to dont trouble her too much....sigh.....anyways and I cant adapt to the KL hectic life like I tink I can be4 arriving here. Sigh....what to do? Whats the best option? Will I regret later? What If....? Can I start all over again? Everything is so messed up plus the assignments, some coursemates and lousy staying place....I wonder when can I finally settle down juz for a day.....a day is all i ask. Its been 8 weeks now and Im still struggling for an answer. If you were asking about me How am I doing?, well the answer is Im not doing good and absolutely not happy about almost everything except for the convo dinner and OON there's really nothing else that made me happy for this past couple of weeks. SHYT...im going emo again.

OK NOW!! Back to the main topic, so to put yourself on my perspective...which choice is your solution for this mess? Advice are appreciated....honestly.

OON aka Orientation Odyssey Night~

Its been 6 years including this year where I have never been to those college events where the leng lui and leng chai compete wif each other wif their appearances and talents. Luckily or Incredibly there is extra tickets for the show last nite...VIP summore! Cool, and the best thing is....ITS FREE!!!!!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! (Thx Kai Weng!)

Without delaying my answer, straight away said YES!!!! GOD DAMN YES!!! GIMME!!!!

Its was packed wif people, the event started at 4pm but kai weng said we can go at 5.30pm cuz we are VIP!!! but even so when we arrived at 5.30, the show STILL havent start....pity those who reach at 4pm. SUCKERS!!!!!!!! NYahahahahah!!!

Lots of people plus the contestant wearing formal outfits..and myself still wearing the white and black long pants....outdated old timer.

The event went on smoothly but there is only a few parts that is 'presentable'.....their acting is like even an old blind warrior 'mang hap' also noe they are faking it. The worst thing is.....the one some of us expected to win...won NTG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those lousy performers and singers won EVRYTHING!!!! It was a total fuckedup event!!! Not only us but most of the ppl stunned by the jury's result. The jurys was Digi's representitive, 8tv, ntv7 bla bla bla.

Overall, it was fun in the middle but sux in the end....no point. But at least there are beautiful girls to see...the guys...sad....cant even say good loooking than me. LOLZ, juz kidding.

Convo Dinner At Daidomon!!!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=129385&id=552773711&ref=nf

The link above is the album where today's spectacular event were held in Daidomon.
Nothing much to describe but these bunch of new friends i have juz made really brightens up my dull and stressfull KL life. Im gonna miss them when Im going back kampar. There shud be more pic in my class rap's camera but I dun have her account! ZZzzzzz....

Anyways take a look~~

Rockaway Free Concert 2009!

Been emo-ing for the past few weeks and suddenly Linz sms me. "Wanna go to a concert?", yea sure! Of course!! Better than staying alone doing nothing but sleep and syok sendiri playing PC. This is the 2nd time I'hv been to a concert...the first time I wasnt even sure it was even a 'concert'. The concert is called Rockaway 2009 and its also a local concert. Yea I noe, the word 'local' doesnt really triggers any spectacular feelings...not really expecting much bout it. More expecting into meeting Linz, HAHahahaha!

It was held in Dang Dung Damn Wangi whtever the place name was it was stills stupid. The person that named the place even more stupid-er. There were more malays than chinese at the concert. Making us felt like a total ODD people in it. Free drinks and snacks were provided....but mostly at the entrance, the other stalls in the corner were charged.

The local bands performing are better than I anticipated to be, groups like Estranged, Bunkface and The Times really rocked!! The concert started at around 2pm and end around 7pm. But we went back at 6 cuz its dam tiring and not to mention the crowd's tossing water bottles, shoes, free givaways like mad. Its a nice experience though, changed how I looked upon our local bands.

Too bad Angie and Albert wasnt there to enjoy it, Hehehe. Thx Linz for bringing me there~

Oh Great....SHYT!!

Its only the 3rd week and the assignments are pilling up. Slowly getting to know my coursemates which is good but something occured to the first few person I befriended with.

There is a girl particular talkative to me at the first then sudden change of attitude towards me.
Here the story goes~

In one morning juz finished the first class, since there is another 3 hours to the next class we decided to go to the library. Surprised to see my class rap (leader, monitor or whtever you call it) with her assistant. So we sat together getting to know each other when she(class rap) asked about if I have a gf or not....so i said im single and not really into a relationship rite now (cuz Im still tryin to adapt KL hectic lifestyle). Then we chat around kiddingly until I said "you are beautiful, friendly and smart sure have many people queue up trying to get you". The girl(one I meantioned didnt show any obvious change ..yet) and then I offered to help both girls to take their stuffs cuz they were carrying stacks of books...of course as a normal person without bringing anything would help. The class rap accepts but the girl doesnt (starts showing signs of rejection).

The next day, she started ignoring me. Going to lunch wif her own set of friends and I tried talking to her whats going on but she juz coldly reply me. I tried talking to her face to face to get a clear understanding what is going on but she dun even give a damn bout it. Great!! This happens when I started to adapt. Talked ith a few friends and what they say was =>

"You tink too much" (Yeah..maybe)
"You made her jealous" (I didnt compare those two at all)
"You hurt her feelings" (As I said, no comparison made)
"She assume you were a playboy" (Maybe some will tink that way but I was obviously joking around)
"Maybe she likes you and you compliment other girls" (Oh no...this is bad)

Why do these things happen to me when Im juz starting to adapt...sigh.
The best thing was we are in the same assignment group and she does the assignment already without telling me. I heard cases where some girls in Kl would do that juz to get you flunked. Hopefully shes not that kinda person.....oh gawd!!!! Cant even have a moment of peace. To those who tinks KL was a better place to study...think a few more times again.

The Final Decision

Finally decided to move back Kampar but during the process....crapped!! Even the two and onli tourism students in Kampar also 'shifted' to Hotel Management....Great!!! Juz a day or two thinking of wht decision to make and this happens.

So im stucked at KL campus for now and forced to shift to Hotel too....Its not a bad thing but...Hotel is not really my major. Even learned some subjects thats really confusing. Met some nice people that chatted wif me. So I guess im gonna be stuck with this course with mixed feelings.

Lets see what happens next. Oh yeah! Met Albert from Maple story, huge difference wif the real person and photo. Planning to be his roomie after i settle things from the previous staying place.

At KL...finnaly...but...

Well, I was excited when i got to KL, Did a lot of preperations with the help of some friends. It was fun and everything was new to me like the way to find rooms for rent and places to go and honestly most ppl onli offering those rooms for females plus the signboards at KL, unbelievable. Its more like a hell of a maze! ASSS!!!!

Went to looks for the room available, some cheap but 'bloody' frightening. One of them have blood on the walls, darn....the room was perfect and the rent is cheap summore. I mean for a room in busy area like this. Finally gotten a room which was nice but quite expensive plus parking within the condo/apartment needs additional money and seriously if this continue any longer my dad have to sell my car since he lost his job already...talk bout misfortune but somehow we will manage it through said my dad. Thanks to TKN for helping me to move the stuffs to the 18th floor. My housemate? One of them is friendly but the another was a 'psycho' or 'anti-social'. He walks around the living room dunno for wht for hours, pull's my lan cable claiming that the internet is his alone, eats alone and ignores greetings. Juz my kind of day! Can it get any worse?! Well thats juz the beginning!!!

Travelling from my place to TARC takes 10 min, but walking to the classes from the entrance? 20 min!!! Its fuckedup I tell ya, some classes even located in UTAR's block!! MADNESS!!!! The 1st day I took an hour to find my block with the scorching sun and the walking distance you can guess it that Im 'swimming' in my own sweats. Much better excersize then mountain hiking.
The 1st week was horrible, in the most classes im in...Im the only person in my course. DARN!!! I was telling myself give it a few more days then we'll see what happens next. Week 2 which is this week....no good news even worse came...the admin confirmed it that this batch advance in tourism students admission..onli one and in Kampar....two. GREAT!!! thats what i needed to 'spice' up my life. Having Mixed feelings, a part of me is demotivated and dissapointed but part of me felt glad becuz im gonna save money and my car plus meet back my old friends in kampar.

And now, im here at a random cyber cafe blogging bout how worse can life in KL be....all the things I did now was almost pointless. In the end, im still going back to Kampar.....sigh

Need to figure a way to move my stuffs without troubleing other people and need to settle things wif the landlord. So much to do I dont even noe how to catch up when i reach back to kampar. I have to do the accomodation things again. Sigh, this is really not my year.

About Time!

Been passive for sometime now, always staying at home and rot thats the reason for inactive for such a long time. Finally!! Received the offer letter from TARC after waiting for almost 2 months!!! Godamnit!!! Wheeeee!!!

Darn!! Still need some time to find a place to stay, the course commences at 25th which means next week....why do TARC being so ineffective?!?!? ( -_- )

Anyways, with the help with some 'friends'. I hope that everything will go smoothly~
Its unusual for me to type so little stuffs but REALLY nothing interesting happened these few weeks. Talk about 'Lifeless'.

Just Like Old Times

Went to my cousin's house Jordan and Alex with Elliot Pang last friday. Told elliot that be at the friggin train station early becuz the train might be there already and guess wht. Hes not there!!!! He misses the train and had to take a bus instead. Wasted my money and time waiting for him....wht the hellll...
but at least he gave to me the day before he went back ipoh. Since alex having a few more offdays I decided to 'disturb' his day by staying juz a bit more longer than planned. Plays PS2 and watch reli 'chisin' type of movies which elliot downloaded from the web. Repeated the same routine over and over again. Bored the asses out of us...until when we decided to find sickko to 'Ta Gei'. Before that we went or a MMO convention to listen bout the things they gonna say. Sickko said it probably a scam thing which turn out IT IS!!! The whole speech and act is so friggin obvious, only 'retards' will fall into such trap. Marketing stuffs shud be spending money intro a product but even in in convention they started to lure people to pay and invest mone into this program which is a total bullshit.

After the scam convention we release some steam by playing all kinds of random games but there are only 3 games that makes us laugh like mad which is Beijing 2008 (Random pressing buttons for different events, too bad the stupid game doesnt show 'HOW TO FRIGGIN PLAY') Left4Dead (taunting each other 'Die plz') and of course Im 'chisining' over Call Of Duty 4!!!! This game which we have the most fun of all although the after effect of playing gives us a painfull headache. Alex getting phobia by always being slashed behind by sickko mostly ALL of the time. Sickko will be like 'Oh Alex...' then alex will be like 'Wtf' next SLASH..alex drop dead on the spot. Before his character died he screamed like a girl then alt + f4 just like when he first played left4dead. Seems like alex cant handle surprises, he he he.
Im good at left4dead but not COD4...juz like alex being slashed from behind but at least I learned to 'counter' making siccko target me lesser. Just that day we 'ta gei' for almost 10 hours straight from 10pm to 7am like when we were a few years younger and a lot of free time. Friggin happening...those feelings came back to the 3 of us playing until we forget the time. Too bad jordan needs to work and cant join us.

Sickko and his family went up to genting today, cant follow the cuz I dun have capital to 'invest'. Too bad for me but there is always a next time. Juz came back home and going again to KL this sunday but this time to my old buddy eric's place...they intro me to try Jagoya's buffet where haagen daaz ice cream all you can eat!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeee, I havent tried haagen daaz before due to the friggin chisin price so its a good oppurtunity to do so at the next trip. Reached home and..gawd my dad starts his 'radio talk' again but this time it concerns all of ux becuz of its business. His brother trying to tear the business down for his own selfish interest. im not gonna elaborate here but the main point is he is being unreasonable.

Still no pictures can be posed....regret going to genting lost that much of money...sigh
Hope that all goes well wif Elliot too since he is going to australia to study, cant really hang out often from now on. I guess im done bore you guys reading this so I'll end it here wif 'Good Nite! Sleep Time!'

What I Would Give To Get 'That' Back.

Before about the main topic, im gonna tell a story bout 2 dumbasses that went to 'ching ming'. The plan was to go at 1pm....1PM!!!!!!!! Godammit whos the brainless ass that suggest going when the sun is at its peak!!!! Fine, respect elders...respect elders. Ok then when those 2 dumbasses arived around 1pm at the respected site. Guess what those 2 saw at the site?
NO FUGGIN ONE CAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Curses!!!!
Comforting my grandpa's grave area saying that maybe they arrive late onli or maybe they postpone some other time never TELL those 2 dumbasses. Great way to sunbath 1pm in the afternoon....thanks for FONG FEI KEI-ing us uncles aunties. You guys prepare to meet grandpa's ghost kicking ur arses cuz you didnt came to visit him once a year!! Ok then, back to the main topic.

Yawnnnn~~~ What a dream, I wish i would go back to that time. Well most people would like to get back to their younger days but the dream takes me back to kinder garden and the best thing is my mind is at my current level now. It began at the classroom where the teacher is teaching mathematics. I saw a question '2+2=?'....in my dream i said to myself ' THIS IS SO FUCKING EASY!!'. Looking at the other classmates thinking that they are a bunch of clueless bratz but that's what i envy about them. They only need to think bout their home works and what else? PLAY TIME!!! Wheeeeeeeeee~~~~

They don't have to think bout the future nor the past. They don't have to worry most of the things.
Darn...if I can have a wish before I die, I would like to return to my kinder garden time even juz for a few hours.


Yesterday was browsing youtube for fun and I saw one of those Japanese Gothic bands. Out of curiosity I clicked on one of the links. Friggin surprised that it was really nice...although the singer/band is 'UNIQUE'. I guess these type of 'trend' are popular in Japan. Since I dunno how to upload youtube into this blog. *Yea i know, im noob!!*
Im gonna juz paste the link here----

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5h6U9T--TMQ&feature=related

Another KL trip~

Went to last wednesday and came back today.... its nearly a week there and the only fun thing I did is Go-Carting and getting a really cute addictive game called 'Patapons' from sickko. The 1st day took a train to KL central then to subang jaya. Dad's too lazy fetch me to the train station but luckily my sis 'fren' were there to help do the fetching. Wheeee, or else I'll be taking public bus carrying a friggin heavy 'runaway' luggage. Sickko fetches me at subang KTM station then went to his dad's houz. At first I was shocked cuz I compared wif his houz in Ipoh, so luxurious. No kidding man...

At the 1st day done ntg productive.

At the 2nd day ate 'pan mee' recommended by sickko...not bad and went to TARC KL to submit the application form, hope that everything goes well ler.

At the 3rd day, apa lagi? Decided to invest at Genting hoping Jr lim would give us some returns lar.But end up a loss. For me still oklar but for sickko...pity him...U still owe me Rm200!!! XD

At the 4th day went Go-carting wif sickko's interesting big group of friends...it was fun but It sux at the start cuz for 2 rounds each 10 min divided into 2 sessions, I started last when I was in the front!!! Mati Engine!!! FUKKKK!!! Sickko lan ci me summore....FUKK!!!!!

At the 5th day sickko 'dump' me to my cousin Jordan/Alex place with Elliot Pang another cousin... looks more like a cousin brother reunion. hahaha, the 4 of us slept at the living room together but of course different bed lar. 4 guys in one bed meh?? Chisin! What we do most of the time is Left 4 Dead only....too bad sickko didnt join us...I get bullied 3 on 1. But Im the one that suggest that, hehehehe. Like the saying 'Human is you, ghost is also you' in cantonese.

At the 6th day Jordan woke up fetching me and elliot to ktm station in the morning and I experience the KL jam-ness. Thats where the trip ends. Juz got home tired, nose-running and hungry plus BROKE-nesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!! Nick!!! Hurry up the rm200!!!!! Being Broke SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling the pain after defeat...

Again, invited by Nick to go genting 'warzone'.....and the outcome......
Utter defeat....not even left blood or bones....
It was fine until I get home and felt the after shock.....
OUCH!!! The pain!!! Sakit!!!! Thung ar!!!
Lost leaving only my own body hair to cover my private parts!!
Thats too exaggerating, but the good thing is I learned and experienced a thing or two.

I can sleep in my car!!! Wooohooo, friggin cold but...wohoooo!!! Imma sleeping-whore!!!
Nick was there too but Im still puzzled how he get to find a place to bath. Yes people, we didnt get a room and nick's mom stayed up whole day pressing the 'repeat bet' slot machine. Pity her, she looks so cham liddat....all nick's fault for inviting her along when there's isn't a proper staying place. The other thing is not being 'superstitious' in genting casino is so wrong!! The 1st trip of the win is to lure me to go again and now the result shows.....nick's mom told me bout the way i dress very 'unprosperous'. From a self trusting person to a 'superstitious' person. Changing 'mode' underway but only when I go again.
Ok then bout the outcome of the 'battle'...lost Rm60 at slot machines, Rm900 of my own 'equipments' and borrowed nick's rm500...so the grand total was RM1460!!!! Wow Weeeeeee!!!

Juz during dinner, my mom invited me to go again tomorow...hell....I feel the 'phobia' thing ledi.
Was trying to resist the temptation but she insist me to 'teman' her.....crap!!! But is this another chance to 'redeem' the loss? No one noes....I only noe that the loss of that much of money pops out the phobia and enlarge my wallet's hole.

Genting Trip

Finally!!! A chance to leave my house!!!!! I would like to thank my dad, my mom, my sis etc etc etc.
Sickko's family invited me to join in their 'battle' at Genting casino!!! Wow! Excited!! Going nuts!!
And its the first time I have really been in one, wonder what it really looks like inside 0_o.
My mom usually goes but I didnt follow her but I followed sickko's mum go instead...weird....

Woke up at 5.50am yesterday morning to pack stuffs then gather at sickko's ipoh house. The transport is cheaper than I expected, Rm20 nia!! Wif free meal coupun summore, but DAMN my genting card expired so I cant get the coupon. =((((
The trip took longer than expected but it was a good opportunity to get some rest due to 2-3 hours of sleep only. Once we reached, the aunties goes to get the room while waiting for dumb siccko when he reach first but dunno where TFK, hahaha. After the rooms settled we straight away enter the battlefield...the aunties are suggesting me to get a genting card to collect points and so I did with the blur expression. What luck, the system is DOWN!!! The aunties were laughing their ass off saying 'Its your first time here and the system broke, your really sumting man'....I was like WTF thats gotta do wif me T_T

Fine nevermind, I dun give a damn already....entering a war zone without an armor....must rely on my 'evade' skill HAhahahaha!!! And only equipped with 'weapon' worth rm400. Alright!! ready and set with the sleepless expression, we charge!!!!!!! dealer die plsss XD

Sickko and the aunties teaches me to play baccarat, carribean stud (which is the most fun of all but DAMN its friggin costy for a game), 3 pictures and other gambling stuff I only witness in movies. Not going for a slot machines, its like a 'priest' desperately trying to at least deal 1 dmg to an 'archer'....impossible!!! BUT one of the aunty made it!! She won around 3k!! Its a miracle!!!

Today we woke up at 8, went for dim sum where the auntie who won the 3k treated us eat all you wan. Thx auntie and Thx for the free room stay!!! =D
Off to the 'battlefield' again!! Finally get a chance to play Caribbean Stud and whadayou noe?! 4 of a kind!!! The 1st card is 7 (cheh, so small) 2nd card also 7(got pair better than ntg lar) 3rd card 7 (Walau 3 of a kind, got chance get house) 4th card 5 (5th card pls be 5 pretty pls...) 5th card 7 ( WTF!!! 4 of a kind!! 50 x 25 + 500!!) jackpot money rm500 + wining the dealer rm1250 = rm1750!!! heart pumping action absolute gan jeong-ness!! BUT GOD DAMIT THE DEALER HAS NOTHING TO DEAL (At least need an Ace and a king to deal)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rm1000 gone down the deep stinking drain!!!!!! FUACCCKKKK!!!! Dealer!!!!! Diu 9 You!!!!!!! Chisin.......He he~ =X
But at least I got the jackpot money worth rm500 and my dissatisfaction aura affected the jackpot machine thingy making it broke down!!! HAhahaha!! Dai sei!!! Dun lemme win 1k!!!! DIU!!!!!!

Anyways back to the main story, sickko is having a hard time playing 5 card games...its even harder for him as a 'mage' with no Intelligence to 'battle' with the cunning card shuffling machines.....thats not all....the scariest shit i 1st time witness....the true 'Cursed' person. Its sickko's friend, whenever hes around me or nick his 'aura' of misfortune reeks man and I thought its just a friggin coincidence. BUT i was wrong, proved wherever he bet SURE and I MEAN SURE lose....even he is not playing standing behind you...your cards all fuckedup!! WALAU!!!!
GOD DAMN!!!! Sorry man if you read this but its how I experienced it, no offence =X

In the end when the time doesnt allow us to continue on, I made it out alive with rm250 and sickko...I better not say it. Pity him, HAhahahahahahahaha!!! Nick's mom and another auntie loses but still survive to fight another day. Its been a while since hanging out with fun people. The memories of my secondary school life where we 1 big group hanging out flood into my mind. Miss those days, really for real. Sigh =((((((

Going back ipoh at 5pm and waiting for the next time for a chance to hang out again. When i got back, i chatted with jordan but he lost his common sense or I also dunno WTF is wrong with him.
Here's the chat ---:

"Jordan" says:
now can online also dunno can do what
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
oh yea
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
ur nub com cant play games
"Jordan" says:
what nub com
"Jordan" says:
i can pla l4d okay?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
then?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
wht u waiting for? CNY?
"Jordan" says:
what cny?
"Jordan" says:
wat u toking?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
chinese new year lar, gone retard ledi?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
can play still duwan play
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
wonderfull
"Jordan" says:
what can play?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
4 thumbs up! incluing the toe
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
left 4 dead lar sohai
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
u sleeping izit?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
duwan diu u lar
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
so blur
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
go drink milk and pls
"Jordan" says:
wtf
"Jordan" says:
i really dunno wat u tlaking
"Jordan" says:
u mean last time cny play is it
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
-_-
"Jordan" says:
or now can play but dowan play?
"Jordan" says:
WTF?
~ Absolutely Ridiculously Insanely Boredom-ness ~ says:
duh

What I learned from the conversation is when you step into working life, you brain gets fucksdup and degenerates. Reminds me of a event in the radio saying that 'Im not smarter than a 12 year old'. Correct me if im wrong but it sounds sumting liddat. XD

Life of a Mirror

I show what people wanted to see about themselves,
I reflect the image of the appearance but not the real person within oneself,
I imitate the same emotion to what you have shown to me,
An eye for an eye is the philosophy.

I am suitable to be hung at place where people can stare,
It makes me feel a sense of belonging when I'm at somewhere,
I am fragile and I break easily,
I might hurt the person close by so please take good care of me.

I am sad when I was replaced with another thing,
As if I have never existed at the very beginning,
I will be kept away and eventually be forgotten,
Time goes so slow when my frame starts to rotten.

Before a new year arises I will still be stuck in the basement,
Where every other stuffs were also abandoned,
When the garage sales day comes,
I'll be sold away for recycle leaving those memorable place where I was being hung.

Once every while...

Once every while do you feel that your sick of everything? Well, today its that day for me.
Those thoughts are coming back again....about suicide, unwanted and loneliness.....is unbearable.
The thoughts of what meaning of life really is? I started to think too much when i'm alone for a long time. Happens often recently. I'm happy in the outside but in the inside..i'm struggling with myself.
Looks can be deceiving huh? Tears started overflowing from my eyes as the thoughts consume me.
When I get to noe about the life of everyone i knew, i see that they are moving on whereas i'm still stuck with the feeling of being left behind. That feeling is really a burden, i cant stand it.
The truth is i'm jealous with the life's of people around me, make me sick of myself and makes everything just plain sick. A sight for sore eyes, a sound for sore ears, a voice for sore throat and a mind thats fuggin in chaos being filled with nothing but these empty thoughts. At the moment rite now, i hate everything....and i mean everything.

Wht an emo bastard u guys tink huh? I'm juz writing what do i feel now. I dont care bout your comments anyways. Like god's gives a damn. I dont need to be pitied, I juz wanted to be a part in someone's life as it has a proof of existence of mine. It makes me feel as if i have a reason to go on. I dont have any reason to go on to begin with....what a sad creature i am. I forgot when does these thoughts started poping up, it just did. Its hard to use words to describe my state now...i'll juz end my bitching now.

Dont worry bout me though, when it type like this I felt much better for myself. I hope i can get back to my usual self in a few more days. No worries!! Yeah!! I can do it!!!!!!!!!! =D

-Dream-

This is only according to my own Hypothesis, not all are true and it's only what I thought It is.


Dream, what is a dream?
A dream is experienced when you are sleeping, it may vary according to situation. As an example You are tired after working a whole day then you got to bed which may effect what dream will occur. Day dreaming doesn't count here because day dreaming is when you were imagining things about something which you likely wanted or anticipated it to happen but usually its only a short moment of time however the dream I am talking about is the current time when the moon rises.
There's something that makes me curious about these dreams, don't people ever wonder why in some situation you found that you have been there but in fact its your first time being at the place or you have seen a particular scene somewhere but you don't recall?

I want to say this again, its only my own hypothesis. I believe the brain is trying to tell our unconscious self about whats going on in our lives by showing us weird stuffs but then if you put your mind in it, it's like a disoriented puzzle. When you put the pieces back you can understand what it means. As an example which happened to me, there is one nightmare where I was being killed over and over again but being killed by different means (Scary Isnt it? =X)

It took a while to understand what did it meant until one day I gave a long thought bout it, maybe the 'being killed' part is what I hate bout myself and the question for 'How did I die' refers to the fragments of myself that I detest. Does make sense right?

There are sometimes dreams that is total irrelevant, it maybe that you are dreaming someone else s dream. A person may also experience multiple dream at once but only the most 'clear part' is remembered and a person can only continue a dream as if going through a story book IF that person have the desire and will to continue doing so. Its almost like a circle of people you know, where your brain synchronize with another person. The dreamed might be shared but the dreamer's doesn't realize it. When you are dreaming another person's dream, you are actually trying to understand 'that' person's a little bit more but you may not aware of it. Dream is like another world for sleeping people and animals (they dream too). It shows us about our current feelings and what we are going through. Dreams do not lie, It may be confusing like a Chinese riddle but it does not lie.

Another type of dream which fascinates me is the 'vision' dream which I called so myself. These dreams show what will happen in the future but the question of How, When, Why and Where is still a mystery. An example where you are familiar with a certain place or situation but you never go or do it before. I don't have enough prove about this matter, it's my own assumption. Believe it a not, our minds may have the power to see the future but only we don't give a real deep thought about it. Last time I was silly enough to write down what I dream t in a paper then if anything familiar situation happens I go read back the paper and checked it again. But too bad I am too lazy to do such a thing, that why I cant prove that how great is the brain really is.

Okay...now to test this I will write down my previous dream. I'm playing WOW, using a dwarf covered with green and yellow line cape with a spear like rifle taming a beholder then controlled the beholder to bully other lower level monsters nearby.

Okay, done. And now I'll wait this test and I'll prove that the 'vision' may happen.
(Please happen, pretty please!!! XD )

Chinese New Year at the year 2009

There's only 2 words appear in my mind when CNY comes which is 'GAMBLING' and 'ANG POW'!!! Wheeeeee!!!! Okay, lets start at the first day....lets see if i can remember because nearly every day is the friggin same thing I did for CNY. The last 3 days be4 CNY I was called by Nick to go his hous gamble again. Called early in the earliest of morning juz to ask me go to his to gamble but since i have ntg else to do so I juz go loh. Played a lot of cards games involving mahjong tiles (La Mi?! or is it Ra Mi? WTH!! who cares!) and learned '13 cards' and 'texas holdem' but Texas holdem' was my favourite. Its a game where the battle of money tossing and psychological attacking player around the small square table. Some people tossing the money like a trash onli....shiet them...scare the shit out of me. XD

After gambling around like 3am we went for supper and then we went to infinity to play LEFT 4 DEAD!! Wooohoooo, salutations to the creator of this magnificent game that needs absolutely teamwork to win!!! Something I can brag to other player bout 'IM A PRO PLAYER OF LEFT 4 DEAD!'. Played versus mode with my cousin Alex and Jordan, my friends Eric, Nick, Fidelis,Derek and of course my sister...sorry to tell you guys this. U GUYS SUX!!!!!!!!!! Wahahahaahaha!! Juz joking, you guys made the game more interesting. =)

Starting from the first day of CNY, i cant wake up to go to my father's side grandmothers hous to collect ang pow's. =(
BUT luckily my dad for once in a long time helped me and my sis to collect them!!! =D
For the first time in CNY I wore a chinaman's outfit!! Gets lots of positive comments! Worth the marathon walk in the jusco and worth the money! XD
Sorry there is no picture of me wearing that outfit, Im gonna get a digital camera soon so hang on there for more interesting add ons!
The routine of Gambling - Supper -Left 4 Dead - Sleep continues for almost 1 week until we dont have enough player to play versus modes and finally the fun ends. =((((
Day 4 Our Go-Pro group (Gossip- pro!, dun look at me liddat..Im juz a member not the founder XD) went to teluk intan visited one of my coursemates elly, ate steamboat together and had a nice chat of how singapore is like...wasnt good as i expected. 0_o
Day 5 Went to yum cha wif Tim and TKN, learned bout mahjong 3 players using cards! meet jon's gf( Is it? sorry if im mistaken) and 2 friendly girls who is also crazy people. Thats what crazy people have...the craziness that attracts people to get together wif them juz like me! XD

Alex went back at wednesday, nick and Tim went back at saturday, eric and TKN going back at monday, my coursemates leaving at tuesday...everybody goes off.....argh! have to endure the loneliness again. Ah..and Chris, u friggin said ur not coming back this year but this morning we saw you...shuen loh dun call me. I guess this is the CNY event that happened this year....it can be more merrier but oh well. At least everyone is back and we had a good time together right?
To end this I wish every reader a Happy good start and hope that this is would be a better year compared to the previous ones! Cherioz~~~ Ciaoz~~

A week in KL, being a lan jiao (-_-)

ARGH!!!!!!! Stupid TARC!!! TIM I NOE HOW U FUCKING FEEL WHEN UR AT TARC!!!!
Ehem....I'm gonna start by telling the first day I arrived at KL with high expectations, confidence building and plans progressing. Was spending time with TKN friends, get to know some crazy peoples and went to Pulau Ketam at Klang. Its a fishing village with a lot of CRABS, its practically everywhere!! I mean on the muddy side anyways, but its a nice experience being able to visit a fishing village, the place is dull but the residents is friendly to outsiders and the seafood is okay for me. Spending a few days 'lepaking' with TKN coursemates, bunch of psychos. XD

Finally waited until Friday when TKN is free to fetch me go Setapak Tarc to apply for admission.
I went to the reception to inquire bout stuffs. 'A' told me there is no such thing as a Feb intake and insist I cant 'slip' in the Jan intake which means I have been 'pranked' by the person I call last week!! She also told me to wait for the May intake which is like 4 more months!! So I wanted to fill in and submit the form now, she kept on repeating MAY MAY MAY!! I was like WTF!!! So 'friendly' staff they got here. I tried asking 'B' she said the same thing but off topic a bit even give my a brochure.. WTF! Helooo, didn't you heard me?! I'm familiar with these already Why waste resources and saliva. Nvm, i go for another last try. Its when I came to 'C', she understands my situation and handed me some form which is 'CRUCIAL' to apply at my situation whereas the 'A' and 'B' have just wasted a lot of time talking useless pussy language!!
This sums up that the management of TARC SUCKS TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!

Being an Emo bastard for the afternoon, until I got a chance to lighten up when sohai TKN at first invite me join his friend and in the end tell me no sitting place for me! NOT only that he got money go drink beer but no money to spare to find Tim! Yes I said it!!! From an Emo = Bitchying around...and as I get back from KL i get greeted by my father's story telling session...I wonder what the fuck am I doing in Kl for a week and end up I'm being a Lan Jiao! t(-_-t)
So now I'm gonna have to wait for the May Intake...
Not everything goes as planned eh? I even heard God and Satan laughing at me in my dreams calling me NUB!! (-_-)

Me, My Dad, and My Dad's Stories (2)

I forgot to mentioned that my dad is Menopause state, more like a male version of menopause if you asked me. Even my mom agreed bout this, it's a frightening thought when my mom gets this too. Anyways continue onto our story~~

Situation 2

Son: Dad is your throat alright?

Dad: No, my back still hurts even though I rest a lot....(and then continued on elaborating I Just ignored it)

Son:........( I asked A you go and answer B !@$#%$#)


Situation 3

Son: Dad I'm going to KL to do my college thingy.

Dad: Be careful on your way, rest when your tired, check your engine, check your gas level, etc etc etc etc

Son: I'm not the one driving (-_-)

Dad: Listen to me first!! As I was saying....bla bla bla ( going on almost 10 min)

Dad: You were saying?

Son:...................(my mind went blank)


Situation 4

Dad: Your Aunt doesn't work at the market anymore, you know why? Its because she is physical weakened due to her age. I pity his son have too feed his parents, brothers, sisters ETC ETC

Son:....... (so what it gonna do with me and you? Your not the one who needed to feed them!!)

Dad: So whats your opinion bout that?

Son: No comment (That I'm not a busy body like you)


Situation 5

Son: Dad I need to get a glasses, my vision has been deteriorate I cant drive at night.

Dad: Sigh....another few hundred gone.

Son: ...... (WATEFAK THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!?!?)


Situation 6


Dad: Son why do you leave your CPU open like that? I helped you to close it up, the casing is manufactured with the holes in it to improve the air circulation, use your brains son or you used too much in front of your computer?

Son:...... (Casing have varieties of holes or special one's none, just fucking open it up let it breathe without the holes. Dad you are just so fucking 'clever')


Situation 7

Dad: Son look over that car there, isn't it nice!

Son: Dad, I'm driving (-_-)

Dad: Son! Look Look!!! There's a new shop there!!

Son:...... (OH GAWD!!!!)


The thing that my Dad do that I abso-fucking-lutely detest -
1) Burp so loud as if he want attention
2) Smokes almost everywhere
3) trust his friends more then his own family
4) Busybody-ing bout other peoples business (a kid peeing beside the road also somehow relates to him)
5) Talk too much rubbish (Just get to the fucking point please!)
6) Most words came out of his mouth is indirect sarcasm towards you
7) He is more 'superior' than anyone else (I Noticed my cousin dad's have the same symptoms, his daughter cant stand him, HAHAHA..finally someone who understands my feelings)
8) In 10 words, 5 of them are repeated.
9) Brags about the 'glory' of his past (Please lar, I mean cmon, Damnit Just STFU!!!!)
10) Like's to do extra things. (Always says he's busy but just a blink of an eye he can say 'What to do, so many free time. %&#%&#$%&$$)
Other that what above mentioned he is a okay dad =D
Not really hate him the person, just the uncontrollable mouth =/
Stay Tune for the Next Story of Me, My Dad, and My Dad's Stories!!

Me, My Dad, and My Dad's Stories

This is something readers might find interesting and funny while my mind and soul suffers the most. It would be a conversation between me and my dad....which always ends up in a weird way. My dad is a businessman who works a taugeh/beansprout/Nga Choi plantation, currently he has a lot of free time and always looking for something to do that involves less usage of money. He even invented something useful but too bad it ISN'T useful to me. My dad is actually a good dad but his nag....SHAT!! Its not only irritating and annoying, its also going in REPEAT mode!! @($&@*&%!^2#$#@$$#546!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To support this I'll have 2 friends to prove it, one of my bastards Eric Chin followed me and my dad for lunch. My dad starts his 'Story-Telling' to Eric non-stop for 1 hour. Eric is totally dumbfounded when all he can do is nod his head. Another bastard is Tan Kean Nam the Re leaser Of Airplanes, on a day he was waiting for the traffic lights to turn green, he saw my dad and greeted him. My dad without wasting time goes Story-telling again, he continued spilling the milk until the light turns green and take off immediately leaving TKN stunned for a few seconds until he starts coming back to his senses. He told me 'Your dad can tell 3 different stories in 1 minute', imagine u were me have to face him for almost single fugging day listening to his story telling therapy. Imagine that!!!!

Okay, on to the good part where I will elaborate what silly things he said in the recent months. I'm being considerate to my father and respects him because he's trying to save money to feed me and my sis so most of the time i juz kept quiet. I'm at home waiting for the next college intake, works with my father (part-timer with no wages!!)
Words in the bracket is the things I said in my heart.

Situation 1

Dad: Calls son and said 'did you locked your room when u gone out just now?'

Son: 'No, I didn't locked it unless i was inside' (to escape your story telling therapy)

Dad:'Your door is lock and the spare key is inside your room, what you gonna do now?'

Son: 'Need to call key-makers to open door loh'

Dad: 'Then tonight your are going to sleep outside! - in a serious tone

Son:'........'

The next morning;

Dad: 'Yesterday i went into your room to set up the salt ball thingy i just bought, when i finished setting up I went our to check something and when i came back the door is locked '

Son: 'Then why yesterday you called and said I was the one locked it?' (Did the face) = (-_-)

Dad: 'Dont change the subject!'

Son:'........' (#$%#@$%#$@%^)

I'll update more when my memory recalls what he said, ignored him too much I develop the 'IGNORE' skill into a whole new level that beats the 'Silent Treatment' skill....he he he

A brand new friggin start for the year 2009!

It's been some time since i blogged in friendster (which is pretty much outdated and abandoned), was addicted to gaming and still addicted into it. This is bad news because usually a normal person at my age would be out there partying, clubbing, dating or doing something useful other than sitting in front of a damn computer for hours only to get the temporally excitement. Can't blame myself though, most of the friends I met or knew are gamers. Been gaming since around when i was primary, I seriously need to change from a computer psycho to an outgoing person.These would be my resolution for this year, I hope that my friends in KL would support me in the coming future as I would support them too if they need it. Sorry if I didn't be what a friend should have be, I'm trying to change that bit by bit.

I forgot to introduce myself, how rude of me (-_-)

Raymond Sam Zhan Yip is mua's name

22/23 years old

Formerly a Michaelian and currently a tourism student at TARC

Raised by problematic parents (One that feels responsible but do not put his heart in it/ Another who likes to go out lepak every single night but at least put her heart into the family)

Believed to be psychic, mastered the basic of Japanese language, predicts that the end of the world would be sooner than we anticipated, have some psychology skills, still waiting for the PSP to be fixed!! Zzzz

Likes to hang out with friends either for gaming or just to yum cha, sleeping,
trying out new things, listening to musics and day dreaming.

Dislikes being nagged, ordered around, being pressured, think as stupid and of course BACKSTABBED For No Fuggin Reason!!!

Dreamed to change the world (which is why they called it a 'dream')

My aim is to leave Malaysia to a better place although I'm gonna miss the food and friends there.

To sum all it up, I hoped to be able to achieve something when I reached to KL around February. KL here I come!!!!! Brace yourself for I will make things even more hectic there!!!

'No Pictures shown Due To Disturbing Images and lack of owning a digital camera' Wheeeeeeee!!!